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| That's right.
For like a month now.
Weird huh?
Thing is, I really like him
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| No one ever says that. That they want to be normal, bland even. But when you're the girl who is normal in your own sense, I guess you could say, but can't function normally in the midst of other 16 and 17 year old girl, you do. I don't have a disability, I'm not slow or dumb, nothing is physically or clincally wrong with me, I just am different.
I don't know how to say it. Personality-wise, I suppose?
When I meet other girls my age, they haven't experienced life as I have. They don't speak out, they don't stand up for themselves, they haven't seen what I've seen and done what I've done, they differ from me in every way. Main thing would be the fact that my sex life is far more, how do I wanna put this, open? I have slept with half, sometimes over half of the guys they have. Dating wise, I'm always single.
I know I'm not easy or a slut, and I mean I never get called that, it's just causal, perhaps too casual. I'm probably the least likely girl people would expect it from but when it comes to guys trying to do things, situations I'm in, I have a hard time saying no. I can be the rudest bitch to people I barely know, I can punch someone in the face for looking at me wrong and be so sarcastic it makes people cringe but I can't even say no?
Girls always talk about standards and love and marriage, but I truly think that I'm going to die young. I've thought this since I was a child, for no reason in paticular. I just do. In my mind, when I do pass on, I'll probally have slept with the same amount of guys then and they will have when they're forty and married.
Don't take all this the wrong way, I mean I care about the guys, a few I've even loved. Despite the fact that I haven't had a healthy functional relationship in forever, I do have feelings. Which it seems guys don't seem to notice that. I just don't understand how girls get someone to officially date them, date them for nine months or whatever and then have sex. I don't know the guys who stay up until 6 am on the phone and write love letters.
I wouldn't like them if I did.
People have always joked that women with the morals and views of a man defines a slut.
I just think it's different. I believe I can live this way for my entire life and still have respect for myself and love the person I am.
But everytime I actually sit down and talk to someone my own age, I just feel like I'm not where I should be in life.
But maybe I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
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| Most of today's society truly believe that what matters in life is being young, being beautiful, having options open.
Overlooking the parts of being young that make it the worst times of your life: immaturity, no respect, unstable, and naive.
What's the point in having options if you can't decide which one to pick?
What's the point in being gorgeous if no one in the world respects your intellect or wisdom?
The only way dying young would save anyone any trauma or pain would be to surpass the whole concept of being young and skip right ahead to being "mature".
Once you've reached a certain age, your opinions matter, you have chosen the life you want and you're living it instead of waiting for it to begin..
and you're also bringing into this world the new young; the new generation of frilly, excited, inexperienced young people who decide whether living life hard and dying before they're thirty is the route to save themselves or whether being old isn't that bad after all.
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| What makes a girl a slut? And what makes a guy a whore?
You know, at school, online, on TV they are always calling girls sluts and whores after they give it up to one guy.
Sometimes they call her that for no reason at all.
A girl has a threesome and she's a skank so no guys date her.
A guy has a threesome and he's the man and all the girls want him.
Double standards is what this is, and our country is full of them.
I mean how many guys can a girl sleep with before she earns the label of a slut?
How many girls does a guy have to screw before he's nasty and a whore?
Does it depend on if pregnancy or STDs play a role?
Tell me what you think.
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